Window Dressing in a World of Chess: Revisited

Actually trying to find something to blog about has become a mind-wrecking time waster. Since I have all this time on my hands it’s not that big of a deal.

Meeting someone new has it’s advantages and it’s disadvantages. You get the endorphin flooding mindgasm of learning someone new. Playing the sophisticated 25 questions game. The ritual going to bed wondering about the person scenarios. Fun, I say sarcastically.

Then there’s the disadvantages. Knowing how much to divulge to them and when to do so. Figuring out when to go to the next level. The fronts being put up. The total window dressing. I don’t play that game well. I don’t like window dressing. Never been one to play games when it comes to dating.

Yet…

I find myself playing this game. I think it is more on the part of the people we are with. I don’t play but majority of the people I have dated do. So because I’m a pawn on the chess board I find myself falling into the trap of playing dress the mannequin. It is so annoying. If a person is playing these types of games then it means there’s something to hide. I’m an open book. If I don’t want you to know something, I can almost bet you won’t be shopping for clothes.

I’m not a person for pretenses. You get what you ask for and you get what you get. If you want someone who’s gonna console you in your time of need, then I’m your gal but also know that if you’re moping around because something happened and you don’t wanna admit your part in it, believe me I will be there to listen but don’t ask for my opinion because you’ll get it. All cold dead truth of it.

This is the deal…I am saying this is who I am. No clothes. Just butt ass nekkid. Because I am streaking doesn’t mean you can take advantage of the fact.

November is here

Well, we finally got out of the month of October.  I am so surprised at how long my month was.  Unusual.

So I’m starting November in a strange place and a strange environment.  I especially need something different.  I like this though.  I think I am growing.  I got out this past weekend and went sight seeing.  I’m also learning the area.

I’m also learning that just because it is the north, you still have the ignorance of the south.  I love IHOP.  I know I can always get good service there.  Not this one here in Mishawaka.  Mishawaka, Indiana that is.  I admit I was on my iPhone when the server came around but I mean damn, it wasn’t like I was ignoring her ass.  She didn’t even ask me how I wanted my eggs cooked.  She didn’t even bother to ask if I wanted something else to drink.  Let’s just say she brought my food and dropped the syrup on the table.  Can I say rude much?!   Needless to say she got no tip.

I am gonna get out of my box and try and see three movies today.  Michael Jackson’t This is It, Paranormal Activity, and Law-Abiding Citizen.  I just have to do something until my Yankees go for the promised land tonight!  I still say they will win in 6 games but if they take it tonight, I am not gonna complain!  It is time they bring that coveted title back to it’s home.  The House that Jeter built.  Yes, the House that Ruth built is gone so since D. J.  is now the reigning hits king of the Cathedral, it’s now called the House that Jeter built.

Football still has a little more of the season left but not much because they have already started *choke* basketball.  I am not a fan but I watch.  I feel it is too much of a one-person game.  Kobe had to learn it is about team play to get the ring.  I also want these idiots to learn that just because you get into a professional sport, doesn’t mean you are meant to get a ring.  Look at Barkley, Karl Malone, hell even John Stockton.  They are great players and have a spot in the HOF but they didn’t win rings and they don’t have to because they are still in the same breath of great players of the game.

I think I’ve said enough.

Until next time…

Hate Losing Friends…

I hate losing friends.  Especially when it is over bullshit.

I left Monday.  I left my home for 6 weeks to train  for my new job.  I haven’t ever been away from home that long since college.  It is one thing to attend school but to go somewhere there is no family or friends is a different story.  I tried to go out and celebrate with my friends but I wasn’t a part of their agenda.

Hence, losing friends.  I have said time and time again friendships have changed.  I tend to put my whole being in my friendships.  If they need anything or just need period, I am doing everything in my power to make sure they get it.  If it means they are hungry or just need a drink of water, I wanna be the one to give it to them.  I am slowly learning most people don’t hold to the same standard as I do.

When did people become so selfish?  Why is it the ones who give of themselves so much always end up with getting nothing in return?  I lose too many friends because I put too many people on a pedestal.  Of all the people I hung out with a month ago, I have heard from two of them since I left.  Yeah I know I should give them time but why?  They have my number.  I have theirs.  I shouldn’t have to always be the one reaching out.  Only two have.  I can’t do anything but shake my head.

I just hate the standards of being a friend has fallen off.  Well, I may be a little too judgmental but hey…  if the shoe was on the other foot, what do you think would happen?

My point exactly.